don't take ambian & drink! I ended up making a pron with a gangster & a pianist tried drugs I wouldn't have otherwise. Then dealt with the comedown for a few days... ugh! so now I'm not doing any drugs for a few months until I move out away from this crowd. I have ton's of photos I need to touch up & upload. Oh! also there's this infinity sketch I want to render better & then get a tattoo of it near my best veins so that I don't relapse again.

Maybe it'll give me more motivation to stay clean & on my feet. The infinity symbol means a lot to me & it's meaning has motivated me in the past. One of my friends was trying to give me advice & pulled out the infinity symbol representing the seasons & finishing tasks... So as soon as I finally get back on my own then I'm getting it put on me permanently.

here's one I found on google that I like => [link]

On another note I met a group of people that I think will be promising to get funding from for some business plans I've been working on for a while. I think I have a better sense of reality lately so I won't get all high and mighty like I did last summer. I have enough self motivation now to go at my own pace & strive for excitement from business rather then friends/pleasure.